It’s so easy to get caught up in the day to day grind that we forget to step back and reassess where we are, and more importantly, where we want to be.
When I recently stepped back I realized that though my life is good, I’m not where I want to be. I have fallen into a career path that pays well but does not fulfill my needs. I’m content but not necessarily happy. I’m in a position that offers tons of money making potential, and yet I do nothing with it. I can only assume I’m letting this opportunity pass me by because my heart isn’t in it.
Now that I’m in my 30’s, a career change seems completely irresponsible and foolish. But is it? Is it worth changing career paths and risk making less money for self-fulfillment? It seems very selfish and childish when I think about it, yet my inner voice won’t shut up about it. It screams to me that life is short and money isn’t everything. Two things I know to be true but seem to forget all too easily.
So here I am, questioning myself (doubting myself more like), am I brave enough to do something different? Am I brave enough to take risks? Am I brave enough to risk failure? Am I brave enough to possibly let myself and my family down and to face the music if I do?
All these “what if’s”… No certainties. No answers. It’s a leap of faith I’m not sure I’m brave enough to take… Yet.
And in all honestly, I am still waiting to “lose weight” to decide because I have it stuck in my head that once I lose this weight and regain my self-confidence I’ll finally be able to put myself out there to market an network without feeling embarrassed because I’m a huge fat slob. I’m hoping that’s the case anyway.