Do you ever feel like you’re just drifting through life? I know that I sure do.
Perhaps this is a continuation of my last post but because I’ve been contemplating life lately and it I’ve come to the conclusion that I have been living a mediocre existence. An unmotivated, listless existence, held back by fear. I haven’t always been this way; there was a short-lived moment in my life where I felt I was on the verge of greatness. But I lost my mojo and I’ve been struggling to get it back ever since.
The thing is, we only have this one life. A life that is much too short. We spend too much time dwelling on the past and dreaming of the future that we forget to live. We forget to take the steps now that will make our future dreams become reality.
I think that we’re all a little (or a lot) afraid of what other think. We are so worried about being judged but the fact of the matter is that being judged shouldn’t matter one bit. Reason being is that we all judge constantly. I know that I am just as guilty of judging someone as the next person but the beauty of it is that our judgments change as quickly as our thoughts. How often do you meet someone who is standoffish and unpleasant, isn’t it natural to judge them harshly? but as time passes and you get to know them you realize that they aren’t so bad after all. Would your initial judgment of that person warrant a fallout or a good laugh? Of course not, so why hold it against someone who’s judged you unfairly? I think it’s fair to say that they simply didn’t know any better.
While I’m definitely guilty of judgment, I do try to put myself in others shoes. I think of how awkward and shy I feel when I enter a room full of people I don’t know: if I only focus on myself then it becomes easy to talk myself into leaving the awkward situation to find comfort again. But if I step back and look at the big picture, I realize that the majority of people are probably feeling pretty awkward themselves. That helps me relax a little and my motherly instinct of wanting to make everyone happy and comfortable kicks in and soon I find myself making my way through the room, chit chatting and giving complements as I go. It becomes easier because we are all the same. None of us are any different than the other. Sure, some of us have more practice at certain things that others do. Some of are able to push those feelings down and some of us are able to feed off of those feelings making them the outgoing type that we all wish we were.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that we can’t let these things hold us back. One of my goals for 2015 is to be more outgoing: To step outside of my comfort zone and be the girl that I invision myself to be. My line of work requires me to be fairly outgoing and since I’ve gotten comfortable in my shell I’ve noticed that it’s become harder than ever to stick my head out and embrace the world around me. The more of a hermit you let yourself be, the more of a hermit you will be. And the more of a hermit you are, the harder it is to break out of that mindset. I have been stuck in hermit hell for about four years now. It’s getting pretty stuffy in my shell, I’m ready to come out! 🙂