You have to believe in yourself, even when nobody else does. That makes you a winner right there.
It’s hard to get over past failures. I want to succeed yet in the back of my mind a little voice is telling me to give up because I know I won’t be successful anyway. But why can’t I be successful? I’m no different from the next person, am I? The only difference between me and the people who are where I wish I was is that they DID IT. They MADE IT HAPPEN. I can’t think of any reason why I can’t make it happen – other than laziness and the unwillingness to try.
I guess I’m feeling a little down on myself because I had a few pieces of pizza tonight and too much ranch dressing on my salad. I had a 5 lb loss this morning and I’m sure I won’t see a loss on the scale tomorrow, but that’s ok – this is life, not a race. Sure, it may take me a bit longer to get to my goals if I continue to eat like this but in the end, does a few extra months really matter? The answer is no, but I can’t get out of the NOW mindset. I do want it now. Mostly because I’m tired of feeling ashamed and embarrassed. It’s nearly time for baseball season and I will see all of the parents I’ve known for years, they’ve seen me much thinner… and not so thin. That is a huge driving force for me wanting it now. That and running into other people I know, let me tell you how awkward it is running into a broker I used to close for weighing 130 lbs less than I do, it’s so humiliating. I can honestly say that my weight has affected my career negatively.
Slow and steady wins the race, right? I am really going to focus on the steps I need to take each day to get to where I want to be. Eventually I’ll be there, as long as I don’t give up. A year from now I’ll be so thankful that I started now. I wish I would have started sooner.
It’s nearly bedtime, I guess I better go workout before I don’t. If I don’t work out tonight I know that will only help derail me and get me off track… then once again, I’ll be back to square one… starting over… again. I don’t want that!!
Til’ next time… 🙂